often ; when the boy and girl break up .

its over, finished ; just friends .

but that only depends on if you still love them .

you cannot be friends with a ex boyfriend / girlfriend if you still love them , it will never ever work.

I finally realized that all i can do now, is look forward.

Not look at the past, and keep that as a guide line to my future.

i have to live my life, how it comes, not how i want it to come .

fighting with someone you care about, is most definitely not the best feeling .

but sharing thoughts, feelings, emotions , love and ambition with someone

you care about, is the best feeling ever .

But looking back on pervious mistakes, it was like ..

i was not allowed to love you in public .

only when we were together, alone .

is that right ? or wrong..

I always love you, and i don't wanna change that from time to time

because of who's watching us .

Does it make sense for someone to care about someone else

only at times when they want you to ?

or should you be able to care for someone , when ever you please ?

its got to change, now.. and fast.

I seem to sense that you care for me more then you did .

you hold my hands , play with my fingers, kiss me on the cheek and stare

into my eyes with that lovely glare you always give me .

play those cute songs, with those obvious lyrics.

*i just wanna kiss you, but i can not right now .

so kiss me though the phone *

So many times I've been hurt, and too many times i forgave.

Does anyone know what its like, to fall in mad love with a guy who treats you like shit ?

Not just a guy, who's a little rude to you, or who dumped you because he lost feelings, because c'mon it always happens .

But a guy who, dumps you, but is still with you ?

Treats you like your everything , but your nothing .

Gives up on you, and runs back ?

Lies to you, but makes your believe ?

Doesn't let you let go, but he lets go ..

Imagine have the perfect boyfriend .

Held you in front of his friends, invited you over to his house, kissed you in the hallways,

held you when you were cold, stared into your eyes, always put you before everyone,

complimented you on everything, joked around with you.

Its cute eh ? how a guy can be like that !

i love it, its the best feelings ever, actually knowing that a guy will take his time to take care of you, to protect you.

How can all of this love, go down the drain and turn into everything it never was.

I just want someone to explain to me how someone can be the complete opposite of who they used to be .

Though, he will "act"like he loves you on the odd day , maybe its because he's asking for something ? Once he gets the "secret little thing" he's asking for, he will treat you like total shit the next day .

I know its so hard to resist , because you think that he will change, that he will finally learn what he's been doing wrong to you, but in reality he hasn't learned anything other then how to treat you more like shit.

It isnt fair, you've been the biggest asshole to me that a guy could ever , and you expect me to be the nicest person ever, i make ONE mistake and every things a downpour !

You told me you didnt care, didnt care who i was with, or what i was doing, and you expect me to think that you do care ?

I really shouldn't sneak though peoples conversations, but then again thats where i get the fucking truth .

How do you do something so special with someone and then tell people you have no feelings for them?

but wait, i swear you were "mad" that i hooked up with a different guy ?

ahahhaa, well suck my dick !

my worst nightmare .

my friend .

my best friend .

my confusion .

my boyfriend .

my lover .

my heartbreaker .

my love.

but you are my temper, i can not control you nor can i get rid of you.

loved me .

agreed with me .

broke me .

fixed me .

fucked me .

shattered me .

played me .

confused me .

exceed me.

and tore me to shreds.

all i can ask for is , whats next big guy ?